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so I got on the scale this week and I have finally lost 3lbs, WHEW it's about time, I thought maybe my weight loss was complete and that was the most I was going to lose. I had convinced myself that I would be ok with that, but to be honest I wasn't. I was dreaming of the small clothes and hearing someone call me skinny !
 I have started working out a little . I have had to start slowly- Paul bought me an elliptical machine for an early christmas present and I have been getting up early and adding a minute a day to my time. Sadly I am only up to 8 minutes today. I know it's not a lot but I think it's better than 0..... and I have been doing a lot more yard work such as raking and clearing some brush which seems to be toning my muscles because they're sore, and my yard looks better

Well I blew it again yesterday !!! I couldn't resist the temptation to grab a sugary snack --I did manage to choose celery and peanut butter instead of a candy bar from the hotel lobby store. And I drank more water yesterday and made it a priority to drink as much as I could possibly drink- Getting the recommended amount of water is truly a chore and you have to be very vigilant about it- and by that I mean you really have to be the kind of person who is alway seen with a bottle of water in hand and remember to sip as much as you can. I have found a few creative ways to make this happen, I bought myself a really pretty insulated cup and I fill it with ice water to keep it cold all day - which for me is easier to drink than room temperature water.
  The vitamin intake has become easier and on most days I am able to get all of my vitamins and keep them down, so the learning process is getting easier and easier. I have been walking as much as I can during the day , I take the baby and the dog and it gets them out of this room and into some fresh air , while I am getting my daily cardio exercise .
  I still have high cholesterol but it's 20 points lower than the last time -without any medication, I added coq10 and red yeast rice to my supplements and that combined with the fish oil has drastically lowered my levels. My A1C level was awesome too only4.8 super super good - I am now no longer classified as having type 2 diabetes YAY

So disappointed --it's been over 3 weeks and I haven't lost ANY weight , barely even a few ounces - I don't understand what I am not doing right . I did visit the Dr and he mentioned that the weight loss will slow at some point- and 50 pounds is a good amoutn to lose on 4 months ! Guess sometimes I just expect it to "melt away" and disappear like magice, and it is completely true when they tell you that bariatric surgery isn't a magic fix, but a tool to teach you how to lose weight and eat properly. So maybe the sips of soda and the daily bites of chocolate have hindered my future success. Yep I am one of the ones who said eh a few sips or bites won't hurt my weight loss WRONG- so take it from me only put the absolutely healthiest food in your small stomach. It really will effect the outcome . And it will seem like an ok idea at first but the second you read the scale you will know that I am right and wished that you had heeded my advice.
I have vowed to not " cheat " anymore I only want to put healthy stuff in my body from now on. I want to feel AND look better - I am satisfied with the 50 pounds but I would be lying if I said I didn't want to lose more . My goal is 20 more pounds, to weigh 130 . I can and will get to that point through proper nutrition and exercise . I really should try to make it to one of the support group meetings , they really help me to listen to others who know what I am facing and give great advice about dealing with the issues, so if you have the chance to go to a support group meeting I say go and give it a shot