Rough Night

Last night for dinner I made a pot of Pinto beans and today I ma gonna make chili with the leftovers. I did some research on the nutritional Valus of pinto beans and I was surprised at how nutritional they are..and if I add some brown rice with them its practically a nutritional powerhouse..I have to MAKE myself eat slowly, so I would take 2 - 3 beans at a time and literally count to 20 as I chewed , it wasn't too hard to do, I managed to get through about 3/4 a cup and then felt full.But I wanted to eat so much more because I loved the taste, I kne however that i couldn't. I am trying ot adapt a new strategy of making my meal on a saucer instead of a plate and measuring the proper amount of food that I should be eating, then putiing away the extras so that I won't be tempted to try and eat more than I can physically tolerate.Because I still haven't realized how to actually eat slow enough that my brain gets the signal that I am full, and i tend to overeat and it never ends well. Last night Paul bought a pre-packaged sub sandwich from the deli for us to have today at lunch and I couldn't resist so about 10pm I cut off a small slice off thinking it would be ok, NOPE almost immediately I fel that very uncomfortable to full feeling, and within minutes of the last bite I was vomiting, it was painful this time and so much so that my face swelled and looked purple from the episode, I have got to let go of my love for food....it is my toughest issue to deal with since the surgery