Well today is the day, My 1st time eating out in a restaurant since surgery ...I am trying to think positive about it....
Yesterday I worked harder at slowing down my pace, and I spent time concentrating on each bite, and enjoying the flavor and texture of each bite, instead of wolfing it down like the old me used to do..Which got me into horrible medical and physical shape..I am so happy that my diabetes is GONE and I no longer have to check my sugar so many times a day or worry about how each meal is gonna make me feel..I have had such an odd relationship with food the past decade of my life. Now I am working on eating to live instead of living to eat... I have found others comfort things to take the place of comfort foods...I really enjoy cross stitching so far and am hoping that I can learn to knit or crochet or maybe both, then when I would normally go to the kitchen for a comfort food/snack I will just pick up whatever craft project I am working on instead..Plus if I do it well I can give them as gifts, I would really enjoy knitting items for preemie babies and donate them to the local hospital and make tiny outfits for babies who are stillborn or are born too soon to survive.( as my Allison was).She was tiny and all the photos the hospital took she didn't have clothing just wrapped in a small towel...
I have decided that I will order a chicken meal or maybe eggplant parmesan and make sure I cut it very small and chew it very well, and I am still gonna order my glass of wine and sip it slowly too, that's a luxury that I will keep even though I am not supposed to drink any liquid with meals. I think it's gonna make it feel less of a sacrifice , and then after I have adjusted better to my new way of eating, I will feel better at restaurants ..I was told to just order water and take tiny sips so thats something I might try too....I just really enjoy having that one glass of wine at restaurants, I especially like it when it isone that I haven't tried before that way I don't waste money on a whole bottle if I don't like it...
Oh and I put an my shorts this morning and they were too big , even more so than last week--so that of course made me very happy. I am so looking forward to shopping for the cute jeans and sweaters this winter and this time I won't have to look for a size big enought to hide my fat roll....so even tough I have some tough issues to face and days when I question my decision,,,I have even more days when I am very proud of me for making this step toward a better future.
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